Well I finally have found time to write an update as to where we are in our adoption process.  Friday I sent off our Dossier minus our I171H form.  I can't tell u what a relief it was to put that in the mail.  It was like I had been carrying around a boulder on my shoulders and someone lifted it off.  We have our finger print apt on Monday and we are just praying for favor and a speedy response from them.  


Fortunately for us my daughters have given us 4 suitcases full of baby girl cloths sizes 6mo. to 2 yrs.  The babies will be so cute.  There are matching socks, bibs, hair bows, the works!  It is very strange to be asking my daughters for baby cloths...LOL! I am always buying cute things for my grand daughters and now I am ironing theirs to put up for our babies we will be bringing home.  I guess life is never like you think it will be if you follow the Lord.  He always seem to mix things up and keeps life interesting.  It's hard to believe that it has only been 3 months since we started this journey.  It feels like a lifetime ago and waiting to get our children home is one of the most difficult things that I have ever done. 


We are looking at cribs at Babies R Us on Monday while we are in Indianapolis getting our finger prints done.  I'm glad that they now have cribs that convert to beds later so that you really get ur use out of them.  We still have to get car seats, another high chair, and of course cloths for Hannah since she is older.  I have been rearranging closets and drawers trying to have everything ready when it's time to go.  It's hard for me to imagine that I will have two babies and a little girl here soon that are not grand children and that I won't be sending home.  They will be ours forever!


I remember when my mother adopted her foster children who were younger than my youngest at the time.  Although excited a couple of my younger girls who were especially close to my mom felt pushed aside.  This of course wasn't true but none the less to them it was very real.  Remembering this has caused me some concern for my grandchildren.  Since we had to move away from them due to John's work a few years ago I visit every couple of months.  I also try to visit for any special occasions ie... birthdays, recitals, etc... Now that I am adopting this won't be possible for a while.  I just went for a visit but know that I probably won't be seeing them for at least 8 or 9 months.  I know we are doing what God called us to do and am so excited to get my children home, but at the same time my heart breaks knowing I won't be seeing them for such a long time.  My grand daughters Madison and Corianna have already called to see if  I am coming for their Ballet Recital in June.  I have actually considered leaving Josiah for the weekend and flying there but I don't know that I can afford to plus I have never left Josiah before and am not sure how he would do, not sure how I would do. :)  My grand children are wonderful children and I am just praying that God will touch their little hearts so that they understand that this is so important and that we will be together again soon.  I am hoping instead of feeling left out or jealous they will learn that sometimes doing the right thing and the thing that God calls you to do can be hard and cost but that in the end the reward will far out way the sacrifice!!